Never The Bride

Received last year, February 4, 2008

hi honey!

Sorry that i can’t write you as often as you deserve it.
I am busy, i hope you understand that, and while reading these lines, i hope a beautiful smile is gracing your wonderful face

kindergarten is a german word!

well i am not in austria..honey, i wish i would be there hehe

you are in my heart, always!

luv you soo much!

KISS

Günter!! (not Genter)

Received last December 24, 2007

call it whatever you want, but u R …really gorgeous, wonderful, dishy, cute, sweet, fantastic, lovely, awesome, great, not describeable, …. honey, nice, stunning, breathtaking … my future wife, my love, my everything

Sigh. He was my first love.

There are times when I just can’t help but to think about him and read again his love letters. I’m not so sure if the reason behind this is because I still have feelings for him or if this is because I haven’t found a new love yet. No. We never got the chance to see each other in person but I have more than a hundred love letters from him. Yes. Family and friends told me love letters are not enough, that we need to see each other in person, and that online relationships won’t last, and that 5 hours of daily chat in YM doesn’t mean that we already know each other well. Yes. I fell deeply in love with a non-Pinoy guy … with a man whose name I never learned how to pronounced (that “umlaut” thing is really foreign to a Filipina like me). Do I have any regrets? Answer is no. I guess I’m just the sentementalist type of person. Reading his love letters over and over again reminds me that there is really nothing to regret about. I was genuinely happy during those times when we dreamed of raising a family and growing old together and all those mushy things. Makes me wonder if my future husband will get mad at me because I’m keeping all these love letters … Even if he gets mad, I don’t care. These letters made me feel like I was the most beautiful woman in the whole wide world including all the other 8 planets of the solar system …

My bestfriend’s wedding day is coming soon and it’s for real! All of our friends and former classmates in high school are very happy and excited for the lovely misses. She’s the nicest and sweetest girl you can ever meet so we believe that she utterly deserves all the happiness that she is experiencing right now Contrary to what I have written in a post a few months ago, I will not be the maid of honor but the bridesmaid. Hopefully my gown gets done before the month of June ends so I can make adjustments if ever I’d gain or lose weight. Good thing there is this site that offers wedding chat for free. Here, I was able to meet some wedding friends to talk about everything related to weddings. It’s a friendly site and quite decent because they don’t accept members who are of minor age. You can also meet members from various parts of the world and best of all, membership is 100% free! No hidden fees so you can enjoy chatting to your heart’s content. Sky is the limit.

Just yesterday, I received an e-mail from my college friend Andrea. I was really excited to hear from her after more than two years of not seeing each other. I was pretty sure she has a lot of stories to share so I immediately opened the message. To my disappointment, she was just asking if I could meet this guy who is searching for a new girlfriend. Huh?! She arranged a blind date for me! EEEEEEH! What’s with her? Has she gone nuts? She didn’t even ask if I’m still available or if I’m currently seeing someone…but of course, she isn’t forcing me. It’s just that…sigh…never mind. She said she’s just trying her luck on me. She already asked a lot of friends to do it but they all declined.

eh bakit kaya hindi na lng xa? !

You see, blind date isn’t really my cup of tea. In fact, I don’t even drink teas! I want mango juice! (haha! bobo!). Seriously, no. I don’t like blind dates. I am “allergic” to a lot of things and one of them is blind dating. You never know what you’re going to get into and it’s scary. I’ve heard a lot of horror stories about date-rapes, yah know? Trouble is, I don’t know how to say ‘no’ in such a way that she won’t get offended Andrea has always been nice and sweet to me especially during college years. And if someone is nice to me, I return the favor by being doubly nice.

Just in case somebody out there is looking for a date or a blind date to be exact, please do contact me (*giggles). As if, somebody would give a damn haha!

I went out with my high school buddy, Mary, and guess what? She’s the happiest woman in the whole wide world! The exact date is already confirmed and she finally got her Papa’s elusive “YES” She and her boyfriend of four years are about to tie the knots this August 2009 and she wants me to be her maid of honor Yehey! I am very happy for her and I am sooo excited for myself. I’ve attended two church weddings before but this is the first time that I’m going to be a maid of honor. Wow!

What makes me more excited is that she’s also asking if I could assist her in the wedding preparations. As if I know a lot about weddings hehe! But “sure, sure, sure!” I wanna help in choosing the perfect bridal gown Mary also wants me to add some weight. Have I mentioned before that I’m skinny? Oh yes, I am. The bride-to-be wants me to wear something sexy on her special day. Wahahaha! Joke.

More than anything else, I am very flattered that Mary didn’t forget me. I know for sure, she already met a lot of new friends after high school. But the mere fact that she still considers me as one of her most treasured friends means a lot to me, sob! hihihihi! Isn’t that amazing? And by the way, is maid of honor english for abay? ‘Cuz I’m not quite sure lol!